The affidavits are in. My counsel sent it over asking for comments asap. I haven't looked yet. I am sitting in Starbucks literally shaking. Not because of you for once- don't flatter yourself- and I know you're the last person on this planet to give a shit about me, the last person I could come to for support or care or concern or anything like it...
But- I've no other blog. I've no other outlet, nowhere to turn for writing therapy.
I'm afraid to read your words, and I am wasting precious free time in not looking. I brought the mail in the rummage through. One wedding invitation, (barf) one 'we miss your business', (barf barf) one bridal shower invitation, (barf barf BARF)... and im looking at all the new moms with their new babies feeling my ovaries wrench in heartache. I also just made a date in 30 mins to buy $13 catfood for $5 off some woman online, so pathetic is my life.
Truthfully... In addition, I am afraid what I am fighting for is a lie. This 'family' I claim to have is hanging by a thread and I don't know how to fix it.
I am so scared of the future, no matter which way it pans out.
The future is there no matter if you are ready for it or not.... You will be ok, unless there has been a major twist your family will be fine. Deep breath and best of luck, hopefully this ordeal is over soon and you can finally move forward. I hope that karma finally bites that jackass and things turn out in your favor. My fingers are crossed for you as always.
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